Words of Wisdom From an Unlikely Place


I was on my way to work today listening to the new album from Linkin Park and one of the songs really struck me. The name of the song is Iridescent and the message is to forget all of the pain and suffering you have gone through in your life and live life to the fullest.  I wanted to share the lyrics as I felt that maybe they would mean as much to someone else as they did to me. I hope you enjoy them, if you would like to hear the song click on this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpt7RJUGpdE

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
And with the cataclysm raining down
Your insides crying, “Save me now”
You were there, impossibly alone.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failures all you’ve known.
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go.
Let it go.

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
With no one there to catch you in their arms.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failures all you’ve known.
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go.
Let it go.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failures all you’ve known.
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go.
Let it go.

Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failures all you’ve known.
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go.
Let it go.

Proudest Moment


I think my proudest moment with my son was a little over a year ago; we had to move away to get ABA therapy as the cost was just too much where we lived. My son had progressed to the point where he really didn’t need the therapy and we decided to move back. I will never forget the first time my friends got to see my son after being away for a year.
A group of my friends were doing some work outside and asked if I could help. I went there and brought my son along with me, a few other kids were there as well and my son jumped right in and started playing with the kids (jumping in the pile of soil, talking and interacting with the other kids). Of course I see my son every day so this was nothing new to me at this point but my friends were blown away. I will never forget going to pick up some extra sod with a few of the guys in the truck and all of them turning to me and saying. “I cannot believe this is the same kid we saw a year ago, he is a completely different boy.” That simple statement will stay with me for the rest of my life as it told me that all of the sacrifice, all of the stress, the financial burdens, and everything we have gone through was worth it just to hear those words and know that there is hope and to stay positive no matter what life throws at you.

Day to Day Struggles


As my son has started grade one this year he has had to get used to full days of school and no more transition groups to assist him. It was a very tough start for him, the first day of school he didn’t want to get on the bus, got up in the middle of class and yelled “I hate school”, and then to top it all off was put on the wrong school bus at the end of the day. Needless to say it was a fun filled entertaining day!!
Since then there have been good and bad days with school and when it comes to a change in routine or schedule this is expected. To cope with this the best solution was to make the morning as routine as possible. If the morning goes off without a hitch he has a great day, if there are challenges in the morning he has a bad day.
When he was first diagnosed, we had no eye contact, no real communication (just random words mainly from Diego). He is now fun loving and a joy to play with, yes he is a little different sometimes and may seem a little immature compared to his peers but he still has a blast and most kids don’t seem to shy away from him (of course some do but in my humble opinion that is their loss).
When I first found out that I was going to have a son I thought to myself how he would play hockey, softball, soccer, basketball, and any other sport under the sun. I had a vision of my boy being the guy that everyone liked and the boy knocking the ladies off with a stick (just like his dad 🙂 ). Once he was diagnosed all those dreams I had for my son seemed to come crashing down and I had a really hard time coming to terms with that. I didn’t know much about Autism and the natural instinct was to fear the worst. I really think that men and women deal with things differently, his mom talked to friends openly and came to terms with it while I bottled it up inside and for a while there shut down.
After some time I did come to accept the diagnosis and eventually I started to see that it is not the end of the world. With a lot of hard work and a tonne of stress I actually got to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have watched my son go from a distant person to a loving little boy who loves his mom, dad, and little sister. A little boy that loves to go outside and play and little boy that loves to give hugs, he may not be trying out for the all-star team this year but he will always be my all-star!!
The day to day stresses are far out-weighed by the joy in my humble opinion and believe me I have had more curve balls thrown at me than some major league baseball players over the past few years.

First Beavers Meeting


Had a very excited boy today, his first Beavers meeting was this evening. He was very excited to put his uniform on (was so excited that yesterday he actually put it on and got in the car waiting to go to Beavers!). Was a little worried to see how he would interact in a new surrounding and new situation, I usually am concerned with him as I want him to fit right in but that isn’t always the case. Tonight however proved to be another proud dad moment!! We got there and they were playing “what time is it Mr. Fox”, once we registered him up for attendance he jumped right in. Some kids were walking in time and others were running to the other end of the gym and back (My son of course did the latter) but it was great to see him excited and a relief to see some of the other kids behaving the same way.

All in all a great day, he was very excited to see us when we came to pick him up and he came over and gave his sister a big hug!!

Swimming Lessons


First full class of swimming this morning started off great (well behaved and good waiting). Funny thing, the kid that was a bit of a bully to my son in school last year ended up being in the same swimming class. As they started swimming across the pool my little guy was ahead of the bully. I found myself quietly cheering and wanting my little guy to race the bully and at one point felt like I was about to scream at the top of my lungs (I held back of course). Then the proud dad moment happened and sure enough my little guy got to the other side first!!!
Of course there were moments throughout the class where my son would not pay attention and do his own thing but I have come to accept this and be more patient than I used to be. Every small victory that comes along I treat it as a major one so this ended up being one of those great moments to be proud of.
The end result was a fun time for my son and daughter and a little proud moment for daddy so all in all it was a great start to the day. Next up golf for me, birthday party for the kids and I tomorrow, and Monday will be the first Beavers class!!

About me


Hello, I am a father of an amazing little boy that was diagnosed as mild to moderate on the Autism Spectrum a few months before his 3rd birthday.  Since his diagnosis there have been good times and bad, a lot of stress and a lot of joy.  I decided to start writing my thoughts and experiences as he now starts into the journey of school and felt it would possibly help some other dads going through the same experiences that I have and will in the future.  To protect my son’s identity I have decided not to use his name or mine but the experiences are real as are the challenges faced.

Since his diagnosis, I am proud to say with the dedication and persistence of both myself and his mom (my former spouse) we have had our son re-diagnosed as PDD-NOS and he has made amazing progress.
I started writing this blog as a way to just simply share the ups and downs of my life in the hopes that it would help someone else that is going down the road I have been traveling.  I have had my fair share of challenges thrown at me and no matter how challenging it has gotten I have done my best to remain positive.  Sure sometimes there is a bad day but as long as you think the next day will be better there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel.  Once it is all said and done we are only here for a very short time so we might as well make the most of the time we have with the people we love.
Hope you enjoy the journey.