So since I started writing this blog it has always been a kind of solo venture for me. I was using this a way for me to put together my thoughts and whether it was read or appreciated by anyone else didn’t really matter to me. My goal was to just put my story out there so I could look back on it one day and remember the lessons I have learned and all of the good times and bad.
As time has gone by and each post has been written, posted, and read something really great ended up happening. People started reading what I was writing and seemed to really like what I had posted (well at least I hope they like it). I also took to social media and started meeting some amazing people with their own stories to tell, and through all of this I have met so many amazing people and each one of them have taught me something and given me a gift that I will always appreciate.
Last night I had the opportunity to go to my first tweet up and actually got to meet some of these great people face to face for the first time. This was truly an amazing experience for me to see all of these people who I felt I already knew from reading and sharing stories together through twitter, blogs, Facebook and even LinkedIn. I even had the privilege of meeting other people that I feel I will be connected with for life by our shared stories and challenges we have faced in life.
My big take away from this tweet up opportunity was the fact that all of these great people each had their own story to tell and I got the chance to talk and learn more about each of them. The more we all talked the more I came to the realization that we all have so many challenges and hurdles to face in our life and just when you think that you are all alone you realize that there are so many great people out there that may have faced the same challenges as you. They may be able to give you the advice or guidance you need to make it through that challenge in life and in turn you actually may be able to return the favor to them or even pay it forward to someone else down the road. So no matter how tough you think it is out there and how alone you may feel when dealing with the stress of life, never be afraid to reach out. There will always be a great person out there that will be more than happy to catch you when you are about to fall.
So to all of those great people that I was so honored to meet last night, thank you so much for sharing your stories with me. I look forward to continuing our relationship and bond for a very long time, and to those out there that are looking for that person to catch you don’t be afraid to put yourself out there. There is always going to be someone out there to listen and give you the guidance and advice you are searching for.
All the best!
So as I was going through Facebook the other day a friend of mine posted her status “Just keep swimming, just keep swimming! Dory had it right”. I have to say after the past few weeks I would have to agree with her (both my friend and Dory). It has certainly been a challenging few weeks both in the media and on a personal side but as our lovely Finding Nemo friend reminds us “Just Keep Swimming”.
First off in the news the past few weeks we have been shocked and saddened by a few stories such as the events that unfolded last night in New York when a mother came home to find that her Nanny had killed her two kids and herself. A fellow blogger I know wrote a post about it this evening and I felt that instead of me writing about it you should read her take by copying and pasting this link:
On a more personal note I have been dealing with a few issues with my son and myself (I am currently in a cast for the next 4 to 6 weeks with a fractured bone and sprained ankle and really not too happy about it) recently. My son has been having some issues at school and it got serious enough that I had to go and get him from school on Wednesday and his mom had to go and get him on Thursday. The challenge with trying to get to the root of the problem with my son is that he really doesn’t tell you much and I say sometimes that getting information out of him is like pulling teeth. I certainly worry about this because as he gets older he is going to face tougher challenges and how he learns and adapts are going to determine the person he is going to become as he gets older. Both his mom and I work very hard with him and we of course will continue to do so, fortunately we are working with the school and his EAs and they really do seem to care for him and want him to be a success.
He will have his good days and bad days and we are getting pretty good and knowing when the bad days are going to happen. For example on Thursday I knew it was going to be a bad day, I dropped the kids off at the school for the before school club and everything was fine. As I was heading towards work I looked and saw that my daughter left her princess water bottle in the car, so I headed back to the school. When I got there I see my daughter crying and discover that my son and her were playing a game and she knocked over his cups and he retaliated by knocking over her’s and happened to hit her at the same time.
I took my son for a walk outside the school to talk to him about what happened and kind of give him a restart to the day. That worked perfectly!! He was happy and ready to go back in and play with his Lego, then tragedy struck. He ran towards his Lego and banged his hip right off of a desk and hit the floor, again I ran in and brought him out to the school kitchen and put an ice pack on his hip and tried to calm him down. Again he was calm and ready to face the day, but I knew full well with so much chaos starting off his day something was bound to happen at school. I called their mom and gave her the heads up and sure enough he had a melt down halfway through the day.
So today was a bit of a better day but overall it has been a very rough week for him, so keeping in the theme of my title I am going to take this weekend and have a reset with my son and daughter. I decided to treat the kids to Ray’s Reptile Zoo tomorrow and go shopping for birthday gifts. I am figuring that will be a fun filled day and should give my son the much needed reset he needs so that he can keep swimming next week at school.
There are always going to be challenges to face with both my son and daughter over the years and that is what parents sign up for and I wouldn’t have it any other way. The secret to surviving it is to enjoy the good and get through the bad and learn from it. Each challenge we face makes us stronger if we let the negative get us down we will never be able to enjoy the positives we see in life. So Dory may not have realized it but those simple words “Just Keep Swimming” are actually really good advice!! Keep the positives in your mind, work through the negatives, and always know if you just keep swimming you will get to that happy destination you are looking for!!
All the best!!
My apologies for not writing something sooner, it has been a very hectic couple of weeks and I am just now managing to have a few minutes to sit down and write. As I have mentioned in the past life is always filled with good times and bad and in order to survive you have to be able to take the bad with the good.
I have spent a lot of my time focusing on the good aspects in my journey and will always do so but to be fair I have to share some of the bad as well. My partner and I have been together for 8 years or so and a few months back made the decision to separate, the reasons for this are varied and I have been dealing with it in my own way. The challenge with this of course is we have 2 children together and for the past few years my now ex has been a stay at home mom to care for our kids. She is in the process now of opening up a daycare and is slowly but surely getting it running, but due to the financial circumstances we are going to be stuck in the same house for a while. This is not the best situation to be in but right now it is the only option.
This living arrangement has been going on for a few months now and there have been some challenges associated with it. Neither one of us can really move on to the next stage of our lives until there is final closure on this part and when kids are involved you have to be able to deal with things without impacting the kids. I remember hearing a statistic when our son was diagnosed that the divorce/separation rate for parents with a child on the spectrum was 89% and thought to myself “no way would that happen to us”. Apparently I was wrong, not to say that having a child on the spectrum directly caused our relationship to crash and burn because it that is certainly not the case. My thoughts on what brought us to this point were due to a lot of circumstances that were out of our control. We never really had an opportunity to get over the bad and focus on the good, if things were bad we would have to put our own feelings on the back burner to take care of our kids, deal with a family tragedy, or move to different part of the country. As soon as the opportunity came for us to work on us another roadblock would get in the way, so after so many roadblocks I guess my partner reached a point where she felt it was impossible to go back and repair the damage our relationship had taken.
At first I was angry about the whole thing but that eventually changed to worried about the future. How will the kids react to the new living arrangements? What will it be like not having two parents in the same house? What about birthdays, Christmas, school, beavers, etc? These are questions that I can’t really get the answers to until the day that these changes come into effect. Also I have to think of myself, I am 34 years old and about to start over from scratch and that is a really frightening thought. If it is anything like the past few months I am really worried due to the fact that although I have many people around me for some reason I feel alone. Fortunately I have two amazing kids that love their dad and have the amazing ability to brighten up the darkest days.
The next few weeks will present some very fun times and some frustration. First off the fun times, Halloween and birthdays!! Of course this Sunday will be trick or treating with the kids which is always a blast but also a challenge. With my son’s strict diet most of the candy he gets he won’t be able to eat which is kind of sad. To combat this I try to pick up some candy and chips that he can eat and just switch it out from his treat bag which seems to work well. Both kids are very excited for Halloween and have been putting on their costumes already.
Food is always a challenge when it comes to things like Halloween, birthday parties, school events, and so on. Whenever there is a birthday party my son doesn’t get to eat the cake (has his own brownies or cupcakes brought from home). When he was younger this wasn’t much of an issue but now you can tell that he wants the cake or ice cream that everyone else is eating. Even with school pizza days and hot-dog days this challenge comes up. A note came from school a little while ago and stated that he was the only kid in the class that wasn’t signed up for pizza day. Of course this would make him stand out with his peers and that can be very tough for a kid his age because we all know other kids can be cruel when someone is different. Again though there is a happy ending to this story, his teacher contacted us about this and wanted to help and we worked with them for a solution. For Pizza day the Boston Pizza near the school was nice enough to give us a deal on a package of their Gluten Free pizza crusts that we can leave at the school along with some sauce. So now on Pizza Day he gets to have pizza with all the other kids, which is fantastic. Thanks to this Boston Pizza will be getting my business from now on!!
On the Birthday side of things the kids are very excited and can’t wait to pick out their presents. I think they are both going to have a blast and these is going to be the best Birthdays yet for them. My son was also invited to a classmate’s party next weekend which is a movie party. This should prove to be very interesting as my son has never been to a movie theater before (not sure if he could actually sit still for that long). So to prepare for this I am going to take him to a movie on Sunday to see how he does. I am hoping that he will be able to handle being in the theater and can make it through the whole movie so we will see what happens I guess.
On a side note, from my branch entry. The branch was finally taken away, so I was overjoyed to see it gone however I came home the other day from work to see a new branch sitting on the front lawn!!!
Just a quick note (or update) about an earlier post. I had written the other day about how my son brought this massive tree branch onto my front yard. Well I have been taking the branch putting it on the other side of the road and each day when I come home from work it is on the lawn again!!! He really likes this branch I guess!!
So on Tuesday night I decided enough is enough so I took the branch and put it out to be picked up by the garbage collectors (down the road a little from the house). I figured there is no way he will find it before it gets picked up. Boy was I wrong!! Sure enough, I get home from work walk towards the house and guess what greets me on the front lawn, the tree branch!! As much as I was fuming that this 6 foot long by about 4 foot wide branch was sitting right in the middle of the lawn again I had to have a quick laugh and admire my son’s determination!! I walked into the house and sure enough there he was with a big grin on his face, overjoyed that he got his tree branch back. I gave him a big hug and am now trying to figure out how to outsmart him and get this eyesore off my front lawn. Something tells me I may be stuck with this branch for a while!!
With a son on the spectrum going to school, you normally hear about the horror stories of not enough attention, being told your child is a distraction to the other kids, and other negative things. This morning though there was a different message received from my son’s school.
Each day my son comes home with homework (which he loves and hates), and the odd note is written in his book on how the day went. This morning there was a note written in there and the usual was there but it ended off with the following:
“We hope he loves school as much as we love having him here”
I put a big smile on my face and realized that my little boy is having the same impact he has on family and friends on his teachers at school. After reading about all the challenges that parents face from the school system I thought it was really great that they would put a note in there for us to let us know how much they like having him there.
So another weekend goes by and yet another adventure with the kids. My son and daughter love being outside and just can’t get enough of it. The weather was great this past weekend so the bulk of the weekend was spent in front of the house riding bikes, playing tag, and hide and seek. Oddly enough I went to pick up some groceries and when I got back there was a massive tree branch in the walkway blocking the front door. I put the groceries down and proceeded to drag the branch back across the street. I went on into the house, unloaded the groceries and headed back outside where I was greeted by my son who looked straight at me and said “What, you didn’t like my branch?” I cracked up!! Sure enough I went in for a shower and came back out a few hours later to see the branch back on the front lawn!!
Last night was Beavers meeting number 2, I was late getting home from work so the kids mom took the them to the meeting which was at a farm. About 7:30 or so I heard the kids come in and when I looked up here was my son with a big pumpkin and my daughter with a little pumpkin. Both had smiles on their faces from ear to ear it was quite a sight to see.
I have to say that since my daughter has become old enough to play along side my son it is a true joy to see the two of them in action. Before when they would play together it was only a matter of time that I would hear a smack, or push, or fall, followed by my daughter crying. Now they both laugh and giggle and play so well together, and fortunately my daughter is tough enough to put my son in his place when she needs to (it is actually quite funny to see). I was always worried how having a little brother or sister would be for my son and at first it was a challenge. It was tough on him and her but I really think that as they both got a little older that having a little sister has actually been a real help for my son. He has someone to play with all the time that loves him unconditionally and he is never left out, it helps him develop social skills as my daughter is a great little communicator (I sometimes say she is 2 going on 16), so their interactions are fantastic.
I am preparing to head out of town for a few days this week and it will be the first time in almost 2 years that I have been away from the kids. As much as I am looking forward to getting away with the guys for some golf and good times part of me is really having a hard time with it. I love being able to play with the kids in the evening, bath time, brushing their teeth, and giving them a kiss good night is something that I am used to doing everyday. So going without them for a few days feels very strange to me, but I guess I will have to suck it up, hop on the plane, and get some golf in. Oddly enough my little girl told me she was going on the plane with daddy as well, she is not going to be impressed as I only have one ticket!!